... I don't know. have I found what I'm looking for?!

Now it's finally weekend. I've been longing for this for a very very long time ..
School's almost over(!), just about a week and a half left. This term has passed by so so fast..
and so much things have happened. many moments I will remember.

Soon it's holiday !!
I don't really have any plans. I'm going to work for three weeks.
And I'm going to hang out with some of my friends.
And I'm going to visit some relatives as well ^__^
I'm going to try to learn to play the guitar, and hopefully piano too ^^, it's been something I've wanted to learn for a long time, but it just havn't occured yet .. but now it seems like a good timing :D

I'm going to watch animes when I have time as well (and I will have time, the summer holiday is 2 months). I've been checking out some random ones I want to see:
Vampire Knight, Lucky Star (seems adorable!), Strawberry Shake Sweet, xxxHolic, D.Gray-man, Gakuen Alice, Loveless, Nabari no Ou ...
And I hope I'll finally have time to watch One Piece, Chobits and Death Note.
and maybe I'll have time to see more of Ouran High School Host Club (it's hilarious XD)
Do you have any good suggestions on anime/manga?!
don't hesitate to drop me a comment ^___^

well ... finally .. I'm just happy it's holiday soon .. it's been so much work in school .. I'm not really pleased with my performance in this first year of school (first year of upper secondary school). especially maths. ughhh it's horrible. >:X
ah well .. I guess I don't really have a choice, I mean it's impossible to drop maths now ... hmm I just have to try harder next year *hrm*

I don't know what to do this weekend. I want to take photographs. this time of the year, the nature is beautiful here. yea.

well ... now I'm going to continue with photoshop, listen to music and Dream Away. as always ^____^

see y'all ^_~

You can only see as far as you think

... Satellite of love

You make me happy when skies are gray.
You'll never know dear, how much I like you

and I will never tell you.

Okay, so I didn't pass the test ..
But thanks for supporting me N, I really do appreciate it ~ ♥
I really needed it.


Now I'm just happy everything's over.
For now.
^____^

stress, stress, stress, stress, stress, stress

please, please, please, let me pass

.__.

"My point is, there are a lot of people in the world.
No one sees everything the same way you do; it just doesn't happen.
So when you find one person who gets a couple of things, especially if they're important ones... you might as well hold on to them. You know?"

~ Sarah Dessen

Make a Change ?

I've been so tired these days ...
Every morning I hear the alarm I don't want to wake up ... I just want to skip school that day, and the day after, and the day after that ..

It's been so stressful at school. All the tests, homework and the exams .. Soon it'll tear me up ..
Today I got the result from my math's test. I failed. I FAILED !!
It's a quite big deal for me. I want to succee, get fantastic grades, go to any university I want.
I've alredy planned my future. I've been thinking about my future since I was in 6th grade.
I don't know, maybe it's not good to plan the future?
I really don't know. I always think too much ...
Too many sleepless nights thinking about things I shouldn't think about. Thinking about things that will only hurt. Thinking about things I shouldn't have done, thinking about things I regret. Thinking about things I want to do, things I know I will never do.
.....
Didn't I say I think to much?
... >_<

I wish things were differently. I wish I could affect the society. I wish I had power to change the world. To a better place. So everyone can enjoy life.
...
You can tell I'm 16, right? =_='

But right now ... I miss Hong Kong. I miss my grandma. I miss holding her hand. I miss the familiar smell that reminds me of HK. The feeling of being home. To go out to the market and all the little shops. To see the familiar "Wellcome" shops.

I want so much out of life. I have so much wishes and I hope I one day can do something that makes me proud of myself. Not getting all right in a test. Something bigger. World Change.

1. How old will you be in five years? 22
2. How tall are you? No idea .. hmm 167cm?
3. What do you look forward to most in the next six weeks? HOLIDAYS !!
4. What's the last movie you saw? erm ... I think it was The Mummy ^^
5. What TV-shows do you watch regular? The Simpsons, HOUSE M.D, Scrubs, Gossip Girl, Heroes, Kyle XY, CSI, Ugly Betty, Prison Break ...
6. What's your favourite manga/anime? Fruits Basket and Fullmetal Alchemist ^^,
7. What is your favourite anime movie? Howl's Moving Castle or ... Silver Fang ^__^
8. What were you doing at 12am last night? Getting ready for bed
9. What color are your eyes? Dark brown
10. What time did you wake up today? I woke up 06:35 and I went up 07:20
11. Where is your favourite place to be? In my grandma's apartment in HK ♥
12. Where would you go if you could go anywhere? wow, um ... England, New Zealand and Australia
13. Where do you think you'll be in 10 years? I hope I'll live in Hong Kong then, if not maybe in England ^^
14. What is your favorite season? Autumn
15. What do you like about fall? The colors of the nature and all the leaves ^__^
16. What do you like about winter? The snow, and sometimes the cosy feeling ..
17. What do you like about the summer? Swim, swim, swim
18. What do you like about spring? How the nature is waking up, it's so beautiful. (I like everything really, except the pollen .. ahhh ._.')
19. Are you a social person? Nah
20. What was the last thing you ate? Some sweets my sister bought in Hong Kong =D
21. Do you like Chinese food? Yes !!
22. Do you like coffee? Nah, I like the smell though ... XD
23. What do you drink in the morning? Tea and juice
24. Have you ever been to Canada? Nope, not yet !
25. Do you have an addictive personality? Don't think so ._.
26. Do you know anyone with the same birthday as you? Yep, same year, same month and same date
27. Do you speak any other languages? Cantonese, swedish, french and a bit spanish
28. Can you roll your tongue? Oui
29. Do you still have clothes from when you were little? yup
30. What red object is closest to you right now? My notebook
31. Do you turn off the water while you brush your teeth? of course ! (everybody should ;)
32. What's your favorite subjects in school? Social studies, philosophy, nature science and ... english
33. Would you rather be attacked by a big bear or a swarm of bees? ahh, a bear ! bees are scary ._.
34. Do you flirt a lot? nope
35. What do you dip a chicken nugget in? Sweet and sour sauce
36. What is your favorite food? Gahh !! So much ... umm everything with pasta ... but my fav is DIM SUM *_* delicious .. !
37. What is your usual bedtime? Different from day-to-day, but I'm trying to sleep earlier ^^ now I usually go to bed around 11:00 PM or 12:00 AM ..
38. What was the last book you read? I think it was Go Ask Alice, now one of my fav book.
39. Do you read the newspaper? Yep, as often as I can.
40. Who was the last person to do something extra special for you? My sis ^^ ★

What is the meaning of life?

Whatever you want it to be.

Quote of the Day

The glory of friendship is not the outstretched hand,
nor the kindly smile nor the joy of companionship;
it is the spiritual inspiration that comes to one when
he discovers that someone else believes in him
and is willing to trust him.

~ Ralph Waldo Emerson

.. And then I looked up at the sky

It's been a long time coming,
And I can't stop now.
And I can't stop smiling,
No I can't stop now.
Do you hear my heart beating?
And can you hear that sound?
'cause I can't help thinking
Maybe it's a Sign

Till we meet again ★

石籬
; I MISS YOU