Make a Change ?

I've been so tired these days ...
Every morning I hear the alarm I don't want to wake up ... I just want to skip school that day, and the day after, and the day after that ..

It's been so stressful at school. All the tests, homework and the exams .. Soon it'll tear me up ..
Today I got the result from my math's test. I failed. I FAILED !!
It's a quite big deal for me. I want to succee, get fantastic grades, go to any university I want.
I've alredy planned my future. I've been thinking about my future since I was in 6th grade.
I don't know, maybe it's not good to plan the future?
I really don't know. I always think too much ...
Too many sleepless nights thinking about things I shouldn't think about. Thinking about things that will only hurt. Thinking about things I shouldn't have done, thinking about things I regret. Thinking about things I want to do, things I know I will never do.
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Didn't I say I think to much?
... >_<

I wish things were differently. I wish I could affect the society. I wish I had power to change the world. To a better place. So everyone can enjoy life.
...
You can tell I'm 16, right? =_='

But right now ... I miss Hong Kong. I miss my grandma. I miss holding her hand. I miss the familiar smell that reminds me of HK. The feeling of being home. To go out to the market and all the little shops. To see the familiar "Wellcome" shops.

I want so much out of life. I have so much wishes and I hope I one day can do something that makes me proud of myself. Not getting all right in a test. Something bigger. World Change.