Christmas is over for this year, but it feels like it hasn't even started yet ..

this years christmas was good, I spent it with my family. ♥

Today I came home and again I'm feeling restless.

I worry about school, and all the tests and homework,

and already half of the holiday has passed !

I constantly think about trying to find something to do so I can keep my mind off from school.

tomorrow I'm going shopping, and that feels good in a way. maybe I go alone, I don't know, but either way it feels good to come out.

I don't think I will celebrate the New Year in any way.

I just want to hide underneath my blanket and listen to music all night long till I'll fall asleep.

and think back on how it was this year and all the special moments that really matters to me, both sad and happy moments but either way has changed and shaped my life somehow.

I miss my grandma so much .. I wonder if she misses me? ^__^

it's been two years now since my last trip to HK.

sometimes I'm afraid that I will forget the familiar smell of grandma's apartment, but when I sometimes pass by any random place and feel a similar smell, my heart stops for a moment and I get quite emotional.

She means the world to me.

You really do

... but I know I'll see your face again

I'm looking in on the good life i might be doomed never to find.

one day i'll be wondering how
i got so old just wondering how

I will never forget ..

Too often we underestimate the power of a touch, a smile a kind word, a listening ear, an honest compliment, or the smallest act of caring, all of which have the potential to turn a life around ...

.. heaven knows that far away is where i'd like to be most days

Den här veckan har gått i rasande fart. Och det känns så skönt för det betyder att det inte är långt kvar tills jul nu, och bara tanken på jul och jullov gör mig glad ^^ även om det faktiskt skulle vara roligare att fira jul i Hong Kong .. mm well, jag hoppas på nästa år ^__^

Idag har dagen gått så fort även om det är den längsta skoldagen på hela veckan.
Jag hade dock endast 3 lektioner, vilket ju var skönt.

Jag hade historia först, och där fick vi tillbaks våra prov som vi gjorde för en vecka sedan. Det var ett VG prov och jag fick VG -, så jag är väldigt nöjd ^^ Provet var om Antiken och Medeltiden, något jag egentligen inte är så intresserad av men jag antar att det är nyttigt att veta XD

Sedan hade jag lunch, skoldagens höjdpunkt utan tvekan. =P

Efter det blev det en timmes franska. Jag går steg fyra på franska och ärligt talat så skäms jag över att tänka på det eftersom min franska rentav ****** inte är så bra .. =/ Fransk grammatik måste vara det svåraste som någonsin har skådats =P det tar aldrig slut ..

Efter det blev det psykologi,i 2 timmar och 40 minuter för att vara exakt =P

Det var intressant, disskuterade om könsskillnader o.dyl.

Jag fick tillbaka min psykologi hemskrivning som jag skrev för ett tag sedan. Jag skrev på den i en vecka, finslipade och granskade, till sist blev den 12 sidor lång. Jag tror faktiskt att det är den längsta uppsatsen jag någonsin har skrivit ^^ Jag fick MVG på den, och jag känner mig oerhört stolt ^____^ att veta att något faktiskt går bra för mig känns extra speciellt och viktigt just nu ..

Jag fick även reda på att jag inte behöver läsa klart matte C till sportlovet, utan jag kan ha det hela 2:an och sedan ha matte D hela 3:an eftersom jag inte ska ha matte E (haha som om x) !!

Det känns så bra att rektorn äntligen tog beslutet att jag skulle få det. Det tog ju ett tag. ><

Sedan har det faktiskt inte hänt så mycket idag. Eller det brukar ifs inte göra det på skoldagar ..

En bra dag var det iaf idag .. Mitt humör har varit relativt stabilt iaf, inte några humörsvängningar som brukar inträffa allt mellan. och det är ju något positivt.

För vem orkar egentligen lyssna på alla mina klagomål? Jag tycker lite synd om min sis. Får välla ut mina känslor här istället, hihi ^^

This too shall pass

Nothing is really wrong
Feeling like I don't belong
Walking around
some kind of lonely clown ...

... Time forgets

Imorrn ska jag och klassen + andra klasser från skolan till stockholm för att gå på SACO-MÄSSAN samt Dramaten.
Där ska vi se på "Onkel Vanja", det ska bli spännande, har aldrig varit på sådan föreställning förut ^_^
Men mest ser jag fram emot SACO-MÄSSAN, det ska bli extremt intressant =D

... Inte långt kvar till jul nu !! Då blir det 24 dagars lov ^____^ !!
Det är något jag verkligen behöver. ^^

Girl who silenced the U.N. for five minutes

"If a child on the street who has nothing, is willing to share, why are we who have everyting still so greedy?"

One that helps ..

Do you remember the things you were worrying about a year ago?

How did they work out?

Didn't you waste a lot of fruitless energy on account of most of them?

Didn't most of them turn out all right after all?

~ Dale Carnegie

because I just worry too much.

I disapprove of what you say, but I will defend to the death your right to say it.
~ Voltaire

.. the seasons have changed and so have we

Trying to forget someone you love is like trying to remember someone you never met

To keep me up another restless night
... another restless night

People are like stained-glass windows. They sparkle and shine when the sun is out, but when the darkness sets in, their true beauty is revealed only if there is a light from within.

I've been down and
I'm wondering why
These giant black clouds
Keep walking around
With me
With me

Times like these

... Feeling so stressed out that I don't even know where to begin.
...
First of all, I have to say, the Coldplay concert was AMAZING !!
They played all songs I wanted, except from one of my favourite "Til Kingdom Come", but that's okay because there will always be a second time..., and maybe a third ^___^
I was filled with joy (and tears ^^) throught the whole concert. It felt so unreal, seeing them standing there .. I can hardly now believe it myself that I actually saw them !!!
It was an emotional moment to hear them sing live, it brings back many memories .. Songs that I associate with special moments, and it was extra special because I've listened to Coldplay for many years and I have many times seeked for comfort in their songs ♥

After the concert me and my friend stayed in Stockholm for a couple of days.
It was nice, and I had a lot of fun ^_^
The last day I didn't really want to go back (I have a bad habit to think about school too much), but when I finally got home it felt really nice ^__^
I guess that I really needed the break from school .. I felt alot more happier than before I went to the concert .. those days in school .. I don't even want to think about it ... but I don't really know if it helped me any when I think about studying ..
I had maths test today .. the school terms first .. and I faild it ... DAMMIT !!!!!
I had studied for the maths test the whole weekend, but when I eventually sit there on the chair, in front of the desk with the test and paper in front of me, my mind goes black ... !!! I can't seem to remember one single thing ... !! I get so mad at myself !! ='(
and I hate it ........

I want to feel that I'm doing my best, but now when I've failed so many times I ask myself
am I really doing my best?!
and I don't even know anymore ...
and that makes me scared

Words fall through me
And always fool me

Somewhere Over The Rainbow

[x] Garden State
(04-03-08) Whooo I finally got the chance to see it !! It was very good, Zach Braff made a great performance ^__^ Natalie was great as well ! This is a movie to recommend : D
+ Fantastic Music ♥


[x] Corpse Bride

(05-04-08) Cute movie with great animation !
The main characters' voices are provided by Johnny Depp and Helena Bonham Carter!

Both outstanding actor and actress, and brings the animated characters to life.


[ ] Sweeney Todd
[ ] The Constant Gardener

[x] Spirited Away

(11-04-08) I just love anime ^_^

It's a fantastic movie from the director Hayao Miyazaki, well known for animes as My Neighbour Totoro, Kiki's Delivery Service, Castle in the Sky and Howl's Moving Castle (which is my fav anime movie by him so far ^_^)

Wonderful animation and cute characters. Highly recommended ^^


[ ] Crash
[ ] A very long engagement
(Un long dimanche de fiançailles)

[ ] The Pianist

(21-06-08) Great movie about World War II.

The main character is played very well by Adrien Brody. He's a fantastic actor, and from all movies I've seen by him, this is his best performance as the Polish Jewish musician, Wladyslaw Szpilman.

[ ] Paris Je T'aime
[ ] Atonement
[ ] Love @ First Note
(Luen oi chor gor 戀愛初歌)
[ ] My boy Jack

[x] Juno

(23-03-08) I've been longing to watch this movie and I've been having high expectations.
This is a cute movie and worth seeing. ^_^ I especially like the character played by Michael Cera !!


[x] Good Bye Lenin!

I really like this movie. It's touching and amusing. Daniel Brühl made a great performance as Alex, one of the main charachters.


[ ] Babel

[ ] My Neighbor Totoro

[x] Schindler's List

(14-06-08) Right now I can't find words to describe how powerful this movie is.
Without any doubts, this is one of the best movies about World War II I've ever seen (along with Life is beautiful (La vita è bella)
If you get the chance, watch it. It's a movie you will remember for a long time.


[ ] Into the Wild

[ ] Little Miss Sunshine

[ ] Once
(because I love the song "Falling Slowly" ^_^)

Days of absence, sad and dreary,

Clothed in sorrow's dark array,

Days of absence, I am weary;

She I love is far away.

and oh,

how I miss you.

all I want to do is to see you

and hold your hands in mine

and feel that thouch that always makes me smile

at least one more time ♥♥

C O L D P L A Y

18-09-08

1 day left ~ !

Songs I really hope they'll play :

The Scientist

Fix You

Til' Kingdom Come

Clocks

See You Soon

The Hardest Part

Yellow

In My Place

What If

Quote of the Day

"The meeting of two personalities is like the contact of two chemical substances; if there is any reaction, both are transformed."
~ Carl Jung

I've been trying to get it off my mind,
but I can't fight it no more ..

~ Keep in touch

I went out in the rain
& suddenly everything changed ..

Daily memories ♥

. . . something to remember

"I was always looking outside myself for strength and confidence, but it comes from within, it is there all the time."

Life is too short to wake up in the morning with regrets.
So love the people who treat you right, forget about the ones who don't, and believe that everything happens for a reason.
Know a good thing when you see it, and don't let it slip away.
If you get a chance, take it.
If it changes your life, let it.
Nobody said it would be easy, they just said it would be worth it.

I'm so proud of you Sweet P !! ^____^

... geez. this was really a long day
a very long day

I'm glad it's finally over

~ Kiss the Rain

I had a good day today ^___^
at least after half of the day, when my teacher told me that I've passed the maths B class, yay ! (but now I kinda have to worry about maths C and E ><) but I do believe that I worry to much, so I have to promise myself to; do my best but don't worry to much about it. 'Cause it just makes me too unhappy ...

Yesterday I was so sad .. I kinda got an attack at school. started to cry. my friends thought that it was because of my worry about failing math, and even though it did had a little part of it, it wasn't it at all.
I miss Ah Pa so much these days .. It feels like I will burst any moment !
I don't know what to do about it. and on top of everything I feel so insecure about everything.
it feels like I don't belong in that class, in my class, or this school. It just feels like I don't fit in.
I didn't have these feelings earlier this year, but it feels like it's starting to creep upon me.
But I have only approximately 2 years left here, then I'll be free to spread my wings.
Till then I'll just try to do my best at school and be more positive. 'cause I've heard that I can be quite of a pessimist some times ^_~

It's only about 14 days till the Coldplay concert ! it's the one and only positive thing that will happen this month, and man how positive isn't that ;D
my teacher is being very sceptical about me and my friend being gone from school for 3 days. I was too, at first, but I would miss a whole week for Coldplay ^____^
but I know it'll be hard to catch up the work and classes I'll be missing, but I know I will manage ^^ (look, I'm alredy moving towards the positive side ^^)
my other friend will take holiday for 2 weeks, I wonder how he'll react when she tells him XD

I've been finding comfort in instrumental music these days ... ! oh, I love the sound of especially the piano .. ♥♥ one day I'll play Kiss the Rain ★

blah, no I have to sleep I think ^_^ 11:10 PM, and a long day tomorrow :P very long ...

Everything I know is wrong
Everything I do just comes undone
And everything is torn apart

But still.
still I manage.
But there will always be setbacks, even though I try with all my strength.
But still.
still I try .. and that's the most important thing.
at least I try.

It's nothing to cry about,
'cause we'll hold each other soon ...

OH,
JUST HOW MUCH I MISS YOU; Ah Pa ♥

It feels like I'm just reeling through an endless fall ..

I know all the wrong turns
the stumbles and falls,
brought me here ..

O H

wow. I'm quite amazed how fast these days have passed. it feels like it was just a month ago I felt the happiness of getting summer holiday. but of course, good times always have to end >___< ..... on thursday (which is technically tomorrow) I'm going back to school. starting my second year at the gymnasium .. and it sucks. it really does. or so it feels now ..
I guess I'll feel better when school's actually started (or I really hope it won't make me feel worse than I feel now). at least I won't be so worried like I've been this whole summer ...

I havn't really been up to anything special this summer. just trying to relax, enjoy it's summer and trying not to think about school (which I havn't had any success in really).
I've been visiting relatives a few times, which is always good. ^__^
I've been working as well, which was quite OK, although I didn't really like to wake up 7:00 AM every morning for 2 weeks >_>
and earlier this summer I went to a festival with some friends. it was fun. ^_^
I saw a few bands and singers, to name a few: The Hives, The Wombats, Timo Räisänen, Crystal Castle, Kent, Håkan Hellstöm, and a bit of Sex Pistols performance as well (although I went to see Billie the vision and the dancers after just 10 minutes instead)
My favourite performances was by The Wombats, Timo Räisänen, Håkan Hellstöm and Billie the vision and the dancers ^__^ I enjoyed listening to them and watching them.
which reminds me that it's less than a month till me and my friend are going to see Coldplay live in stockholm !! oooooh I'm getting quite excited about it =)
I believe it's going to be really awesome ^___^

I've been quite a freak about Twilight these months XD
............................
I guess (or lets say I'm quite sure) that my sisters are very tired about hearing my babble about Twilight every now and then ^^ but how can I stop?! I mean, wow, Edward really fascinate me ^.^ and the books are great. they've actually saved my summer to be honest ...
some moments when I've been just too sad and worried of all the hours of thinking about school, I just take my iPOD, goes to bed, and lie down for a quite of a long time and just let myself be dragged into the Twilight story. those are the best moments.

I havn't missed all this talk about Twilight VS Harry Potter which is going around all over the internet.
I've been a fan of the Harry Potter books and movies for about .... seven years now. and I've been a Twilight fan since June, which is a quite of a difference indeed ^^ and I can't say who I think is the best author of J.K Rowling or Stephanie Meyer. I don't really think that you can "compare" these two authors who's the best and who's not; just because they write so different.
Sure, the two stories are fantasy-like, but no more than that ! they've two completely different stories.
I don't really know what my point is about writing this, but my point is, XD, is that I don't think everyone should compare these two fantastic authors.

several days ago I read that Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince is going to have it's premiere next summer, 2009 instead of November 21st 2008. I have to say I'm quite disappointed =(
I've been looking forward to it for a very long time now, as many others have.
and now I also read that the first movie of the Twilight serie is moved from having it's premiere in December 2008 to November 21st 2008. interesting I have to say.
but I'm looking forward to it, as well ! ^_^
I have to be honest and say that I'm quite curious about how many people will see Twilight and how many will see Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince. I'm quite sure it'll be a major fuss about it.
both are very successful, especially Twilight which is one of the biggest topic all around now a days. oh how I love both ^_^

and now to something else (geez is the clock alredy 01:37 AM?!!!): Olympic Games in Beijing.
I've been following it every day now since it started, and man, I love to watch it ♡
I don't have much time now since my eyelids are starting to slip, but I have to say, of all things I've watched, the most exciting thing had to be the basketball game, China against USA.
ohhh, that was really something worth watching XD
it's a pity China lost the game, but I have to say that USA was really, really good.
Yao Ming is now one of my favourite chinese celeb. yep, he's just too awesome ^___^
I did get very disappointed when Liu Xiang couldn't make his run, but most of all, he must've been even more disappointed. he's been training for years for this Olympic game, and when it finally occurs he's injured =/
I hope he'll recover soon and that he'll be able to continue his career.

oh, now I'm tired. and stressed. damn it.

this year I have to do better in school. I just have to.
bye bye and good night.
...............
well, at least I have HP and Twilight. and still a bit of OS left ^__^
Cheers

Breaking Dawn ~ Happy reading !

你现在想去哪里就可以去哪里了

~ now you can go anywhere

8/7 - 08

♥

Giving up doesn't always mean you are weak;
sometimes it means that you are strong enough
to let go ...

Sitting, Waiting, Wishing

my hope is dying

I'm just so sick of trying ...

No one's gonna love you like I do ...

Two days ago I played mahjong for the first time in my life.

I know it's quite weird. I mean, I've been to Hong Kong several times and I've never played it even though it's so popular there. I've only watched my relatives play it.

But anyway. I tried for the first time with my sis and mami. I was very eager at the beginning.

But after a couple of minutes I got quite irritated because I couldn't understand the rules. (Yes, I get irritated often, the same with my mood, it changes all the time .. XD )

Since my mum explained in cantonese it took me a while until I could understand it. But after a couple of more minutes I started to understand how it worked. And it was fun ! Woho !

Fantastic paintings by Yosuke Ueno

TIAN - SHi

I was so happy, when you smiled at me
With a smile that melts everything away

... Kär i en Ängel

The summer holiday has alredy started. Though it doesn't feel like it.
The weather .. sucks ... it's cold and it's raining all the time ..
Just a few hours ago I came home from my little trip. I went to visit some relatives, like I usually do when I'm on holiday.
I had quite of a good time. ^__^
I watched Schindler's list a few days ago. Amazing movie ! I generally like to watch movies about World War II, and I've added this movie to my list of my favourite movies.
Yesterday I re-watched some episodes of Fruits Basket with my sis. She enjoyed it, and same did I ! I just love the feeling of watching it. My favourite anime ^__^ I havn't read the manga yet, but I'm going to buy the books soon n_n

Although it's holiday now, I fel so stressed ... so much things that has to be done ..
I worry about maths .... .__. and french ...
next week I'm going to work, for a week, and after I'm having another job for two weeks .. it'll be good to have something else to think about.

I've been very tired these days .. I don't know if it has something to do with the weather or just my endless hours of worrying and thinking .. I guess both.

I've started to listen to audiobooks in english. it's fun ^__^ I'm on chapter 3 of the book Twilight. It's very good. I was hooked after listening to just a few minutes. Maybe you've heard of it? It's a quite famous book = )

I'm very tired ... I think I'll go to bed early today .. and I have a headache ._______.
right now I just feel sad about everything.
my feelings are a mess

I was so happy, when you smiled at me
With a smile that melts everything away

Summer feelings overwhelm me ...

... and it sure feels great