~ Kiss the Rain

I had a good day today ^___^
at least after half of the day, when my teacher told me that I've passed the maths B class, yay ! (but now I kinda have to worry about maths C and E ><) but I do believe that I worry to much, so I have to promise myself to; do my best but don't worry to much about it. 'Cause it just makes me too unhappy ...

Yesterday I was so sad .. I kinda got an attack at school. started to cry. my friends thought that it was because of my worry about failing math, and even though it did had a little part of it, it wasn't it at all.
I miss Ah Pa so much these days .. It feels like I will burst any moment !
I don't know what to do about it. and on top of everything I feel so insecure about everything.
it feels like I don't belong in that class, in my class, or this school. It just feels like I don't fit in.
I didn't have these feelings earlier this year, but it feels like it's starting to creep upon me.
But I have only approximately 2 years left here, then I'll be free to spread my wings.
Till then I'll just try to do my best at school and be more positive. 'cause I've heard that I can be quite of a pessimist some times ^_~

It's only about 14 days till the Coldplay concert ! it's the one and only positive thing that will happen this month, and man how positive isn't that ;D
my teacher is being very sceptical about me and my friend being gone from school for 3 days. I was too, at first, but I would miss a whole week for Coldplay ^____^
but I know it'll be hard to catch up the work and classes I'll be missing, but I know I will manage ^^ (look, I'm alredy moving towards the positive side ^^)
my other friend will take holiday for 2 weeks, I wonder how he'll react when she tells him XD

I've been finding comfort in instrumental music these days ... ! oh, I love the sound of especially the piano .. ♥♥ one day I'll play Kiss the Rain ★

blah, no I have to sleep I think ^_^ 11:10 PM, and a long day tomorrow :P very long ...