Times like these

... Feeling so stressed out that I don't even know where to begin.
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First of all, I have to say, the Coldplay concert was AMAZING !!
They played all songs I wanted, except from one of my favourite "Til Kingdom Come", but that's okay because there will always be a second time..., and maybe a third ^___^
I was filled with joy (and tears ^^) throught the whole concert. It felt so unreal, seeing them standing there .. I can hardly now believe it myself that I actually saw them !!!
It was an emotional moment to hear them sing live, it brings back many memories .. Songs that I associate with special moments, and it was extra special because I've listened to Coldplay for many years and I have many times seeked for comfort in their songs ♥

After the concert me and my friend stayed in Stockholm for a couple of days.
It was nice, and I had a lot of fun ^_^
The last day I didn't really want to go back (I have a bad habit to think about school too much), but when I finally got home it felt really nice ^__^
I guess that I really needed the break from school .. I felt alot more happier than before I went to the concert .. those days in school .. I don't even want to think about it ... but I don't really know if it helped me any when I think about studying ..
I had maths test today .. the school terms first .. and I faild it ... DAMMIT !!!!!
I had studied for the maths test the whole weekend, but when I eventually sit there on the chair, in front of the desk with the test and paper in front of me, my mind goes black ... !!! I can't seem to remember one single thing ... !! I get so mad at myself !! ='(
and I hate it ........

I want to feel that I'm doing my best, but now when I've failed so many times I ask myself
am I really doing my best?!
and I don't even know anymore ...
and that makes me scared